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#SpotlightOnCLT Military Appreciation

July is our #SpotlightOnCLT month to highlight local nonprofits who are making a difference in the lives of military veterans and families.  Because support for the military is so complex and layered, if you are not "boots on the ground" or "in the trenches" with these programs, it is sometimes hard to see how they can make differences in individual lives, let alone an entire community.  But, make a difference they do...

We spoke with Morgan Liles from HopeWay to learn more about an incredible story of how their mental health programs make an impact on our military veterans, neighbors, and families.  Get your tissues and get ready for an inspirational story.

What would HopeWay like for the community to know about the challenges the organization is trying to solve?

Nationally, about 20 Veterans die by suicide each day and Veterans are more likely to suffer from PTSD and other related mental health conditions than civilians. These invisible wounds can be debilitating and even deadly without the right treatment and care. HopeWay is committed to reducing the rate of suicide among our nation’s heroes by providing top-notch mental health treatment tailored to meet Veterans’ specific needs.     

HopeWay’s Veterans Program provides three options for evidence-based mental health treatment for PTSD recommended by the Department of Defense and the Veterans Administration and also addresses other related mental health conditions. Through our comprehensive model of care, Veterans receive the necessary treatment and learn important tools needed to live the life they so desperately deserve.     

A Story of Hope: Meet Tracy

For the past 26 years, I believed that I was responsible for the trauma that happened in my life. I carried that weight around every single day and never thought anyone would ever understand. My trauma controlled my life. I was hard, combative, and I relied on substances to get through the day. I had relationships but always kept them at a distance, because, again, no one could ever understand. Prior to HopeWay, most people would describe me as a “bad ass,” but that exterior armor was a defense mechanism. It was the way I survived.

I am a US Veteran and a sexual assault survivor. I joined the military when I was 19 years old and was a 62 Bravo (heavy engineer), 76 Victor (supply) and 43 Echo (parachute rigger). While in the military, I was sexually assaulted by a Sergeant. Unfortunately, this was not my first experience with abuse. I was abused as a child, so it was all too familiar.

When I got out of the military, I started using substances daily to numb the pain and turn my mind off. Sleep became difficult and I found myself waking up around 3:00am every night, which was the same time as the assault. I was constantly on edge, never felt safe and always ready to fight. That Sergeant’s face showed up everywhere – the checkout person at the grocery store or a co-worker. I wanted that Sergeant and my mother to feel the pain that I felt, so I was ready to take it out on anyone.

I had been to therapy on and off over the past several years. Most of the time, I would enter the therapist’s office and not talk – just biding my time until I could get out of there. It was hard to believe that talking with a therapist was going to make any difference. I went to substance use treatment as well but would always go back to using. There were times I contemplated and even tried to commit suicide. I believed if I was dead I no longer had to be scared of something bad happening. Then, I started seeing my therapist through the VA. Something was different. She was almost as stubborn as me, and I eventually started talking. It was the first time I ever disclosed the abuse in the military and once I said it out loud, my therapist immediately knew I needed a higher level of care to truly process the trauma. My therapist made a referral through the VA to HopeWay and I, hesitantly, showed up to treatment.

The first two weeks at HopeWay were extremely hard. I did not think I needed to be there, and I had one foot out of the door most of the time. Also, my therapist, Ross Cole, who I lovingly call the “exorcist” was making me work REALLY hard. His approach was different than any therapist I had ever worked with. I participated in Cognitive Processing Therapy and had to write down my trauma. This exercise made me physically ill at one point, but I slowly started to see the shift in my thinking. Through my work with Ross and all of the homework assignments, I started to actually believe that the trauma was not my fault. I did not cause the trauma, and I was not responsible for the bad things that happened to me.

My progress was not only because of my individual therapy sessions, it was because of the comprehensive nature of the program. The integrative therapies allowed me to express myself in a way I had never done before. Dr. Johnson put me on the right medication. I started eating better and exercising again and I was finally able to sleep through the night. No more waking up at 3:00am to make sure I was safe. For the first time in my life, group therapy made me feel like I was not alone and others could understand me. 

I am leaving after 32 days in treatment, and I am beyond grateful for my time at HopeWay, but more than anything I am proud of myself. I have worked very hard, and I have a life to live. I gave Ross the nickname “exorcist” because my demons are no longer inside of me and that is the most liberating feeling I have felt in twenty-six years."     

A little more about the image pictured above: Veterans participate in individual and group therapy, as well as integrative therapies like art, horticulture, music, recreation, nutrition education, pet therapy, meditation and yoga.